Thursday, January 18, 2018

2017 in retrospect

My 2017 was a bit weird. Busy as fuck, as you may have guessed :D But I also did some scary but awesome shit for the first time in my life. None of it went like in my #fantasies posts, but that's why they're fantasies and not real life, right? :)

So. I'll slit my stories in a few posts so they're kinda more sensemaking and less wall of texty and I believe you all appreciate it somehow. That just means that the juicier posts have to be waited for as this won't have any actual smut ;)

Three times a lady

At some point last spring or summer I got contacted by another girl by email. We exchanged a good number of mails just talking about crap, we seemed to have a lot in common. I raised my concern of not having slutty outfits nor space for them so I only had g-strings and nothing else. She said if I wanted I could borrow hers! Nice!

Then at some point she asked if I would feel like meeting in person. This was, as you may imagine, fucking scary. But I answered "yes" to my great shock :D

Then we started somehow planning on how to meet, where and when. Luckily it was summertime and I had some good slack at work so I could do a "lunch meeting". The idea was to meet in civilian clothes, acting our Clark Kent roles, not real ourselves. Because it was going to be a chat with the aim of seeing how the chemistry worked and if we indeed had anything in common and so on.

Did I already say SCARY AS FUCK? :D

Yeah, we agreed on this and that, but still I wore my black g-string and carried my cockrings with me because I felt like it <3 And it was arousing <3

The first meeting - ever

One early June afternoon, if I remember correctly, I set out and walked towards the meeting point. We were using kik to actually find ourselves, as we hadn't shared any face photos or anything for obvious reasons. We met, introduced ourselves (myself simply just Jossu which was damn hot and again, scary). She drove us somewhat further away and we went to sit down next to the boat harbour or piers or something, next to the water anyway.

After the slightly awkward early not-that-important chitchat we got to some more real stuff. I'm kinda ashamed to admit that I wasn't the one who first ventured into the naughty subjects... but that's how it goes sometimes. In short: we had a nice, good long chat on a nice warm summer afternoon and it felt good. I don't know if you know how weird it was to tell about all these things I write about pretty freely, but boys and girls, it was damn weird. But also arousing because I was telling something very intimate to someone who shared similar desires and fantasies.

She dropped me off just about where I was picked up, and along the way she "confessed" she was wearing. And I said that I had my black g-string on because I wanted to wear them for the occasion :3 At the dropoff when we said goodbyes she at the last moment laid her hand on my thigh, I looked into her eyes and just smiled :)

When walking back to work I thought to myself "why the fuck didn't I move her hand on my bulge? Fuck!" These things happen to me a lot, sadly, not just in sexy cases but everywhere. I told about this thought of mine to her in a chat later on and she said, that she had also longed for a Touch but... there's always the next time ;)

So what?

The real result of this was that we started planning a real meeting. A lesbian meeting. Oh yes...

And we did get to some actual stuff, but I'll write about that the next time!

Monday, February 13, 2017

Another horny cumpilation

Yeah, I'm horny as fuck and I'm sharing a load of hot pics :)

The cumpilation

These first two photos... I wish I was that hot and delicious. Just look at the hard, smooth clit. Isn't it just perfect to be kissed, licked and sucked? :) And the girl in the second one... tied down and helpless... I'd just wear more lingerie but I'd love to be her, there, for a sissy girlfriend <3 Perfection <3

Some desires

Nothing new here as everyone knows ;) But I enjoy revealing and telling this to people, I guess because it's a bit embarrassing... and a turn-on at the same time. Weird, right?

One of the things I want to do is to be fucked in my boypussy and mouth at the same time. Preferrably by sissy girlfriends because they're so fucking hot! But in a desperate moment I guess I could maybe tolerate guys as well.

She's hard and I love it

Riding a bare cock <3 Need I explain this? <3

<3 Cum on me <3 I want cum on me <3 I need cum on me <3 On and in <3

I'm nowhere as cute as this girl... but I'd wear a collar and kitty ears with happiness - and a tail plug before being fucked ;) By the looks of it the fucker is a girl too and that is even better <3
Hmmmm. I wonder who'd be the girl to fuck me a bit? Bareback of course <3

Captions and hypno stuff

I love hypnos and sissy captions. I share the ones that are most true and fitting to me and my weird desires and girl-self :) The first one nails it: my proper place is that, sucking a dick and balls.

That's all I do - daydream of sucking cocks

Fuck yes

I wanna be filled to the brim with hot cum

And some riding

Yeah, I keep telling you that. I want to ride a cock. Girlcock. Bare cock.

Tuesday, December 13, 2016

Some more hotness

A fucking hot gifv

This I encountered in diaspora :) A cute brunette girl with cat ears stroking her clit <3 Yummy... <3


There's not much that I adore more than a sight like this... G-strings pulled tightly over smooth, sexy, delicious balls... just calling for my tongue ;) And then the string part going by the boipussy... it's so very arousing and it just makes my mouth water <3 Beautiful <3

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Animated pics showing my deep, horny desires

My horniness has reached new levels again :) I bought new panties, cockring, fishnet stockings and a butt plug just a couple of weeks ago or so. I have enjoyed them at work a couple of times! Let's just say that bus trips are interesting when plugged in ;) Maybe I'll show a pic or tow later ^_^

That said I want more and more to get to play with another girl! The only limitation is that I can only meet up and get going is at Keltainen Ruusu or US Video, or something like that. Those places are also known of their cruising areas which is quite a turnon <3

Wednesday, July 13, 2016

Pics of kissing crossdressers

This is somehow relevant to my interests ;) But as I always keep complaining I'm not nearly as hot as these girls here. Still... I wish I was one of them one day :)

Monday, June 13, 2016

The desires. The cravings. They're building up inside me again.

What am I talking about? The undeniable need to dress up and play with toys, that's what. I don't think I'm able to go for a full outfit yet if ever again. But panties and something else to go with them at least. Some sort of minimum set for girlplay... I need that. I love it and I require it <3 That's who I am and you all know it just as well as I do!

I will never be as sweet as these girls but I can dream...

Friday, May 20, 2016


I am fucking horny

And I guess I lost my mind in my horny haze and ended up doing something I have never done this publically: posting a frontal photo of myself.

There. Now you  have seen me in all my glory. That turns me on. I want to dress up like that again and insert that red diamond plug in my butt. And to show myself to someon, live.

This is madness. And it feels sexy. Hot. Arousing.
Most of all I want to feel another gurl's mouth traveling around my body and her bulging panties pressing my face. That's what I crave right now. Nothing more. And still it's so fucking impossible to obtain.

Especially as I have purged everything. Again. Once again. I hate this. But I cannot help it.

I am so fucking horny.

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Real-life meeting thoughts

It could be doable - even for me - to arrange a meeting with a fellow crossdresser, just a meeting. Going for a coffee with no naughty plans or anything. Of course anything could happen, but still, that's not the point with this kind of  a meeting. These're supposed to be a "let's chat in real life and see if we hit off" kind of a thing.

stock photo

That may sound boring to anyone else, but do imagine this from my viewpoint.
You'd meet someone who you know to be a fellow crossdresser - and that the other one knows exactly what you are too. You have talked about your fantasies, fetishes and desires. Your favourite pornstars, clips, types of lingerie, sex toys and masturbation habits. Of sucking cock, all that girly talk at least I love ;) I mean, why meet someone whom you know nothing of?

To me that alone would be fucking arousing.

Going for a cup of coffee in a coffee place - or for an afterwork beer in a bar, chatting about everyday-like topics. Seeing your fellow-perv and imagining him as her... in her favourite lingerie. You've seen her be slutty in photos and you can rest assured that she's most likely imagining you the exact same way, remembering your comments and seeing your pics in her mind's eye!

I know I'd suddendly realize that at some point and most likely blush. Or lose my usual speech pattern, stutter a bit, get totally lost or something like it. That'd tell the other one that I got seriously distracted - and in this case I don't think it'd take a genious to figure out why so. This in turn could lead to more inner revelations and hopefully some very obscene thoughts <3

Of course in this example of mine the whole meetup had been agreed to be a "civilian clothes only", to avoid adding any extra pressure on the participants. But I think that even if that was agreed on, I might put on lingerie anyway. If I had any, that is.
Then, if the mood was good and the other party seemed worth it, I'd sneakily show a bit of a shoulder strap... ;)

Not exactly like this but while scratching the collarbone region, for example...
Purposefully but still sneakily revealing something...
Yes, I would totally "come out" to someone that way. I know I would be about to panic but also getting very horny and lusty. The preconditions for the revelation would make sure of it, of course. I wouldn't do anything that risky for someone I wasn't feeling confident with. Common sense? Should be!

I'm not saying that I'd immediately jump into the first free toilet or closet to suck, be sucked, fuck or be fucked or anything. What is my point is - it is to verify my girl-self to someone in good confidence and gauge their reaction. Doing that would not be a promise of sexytimes or anything, just a show of faith in the other party.

As always this is just another case of Johanna's neverending empty talk because nothing like this will never happen. Most likely. Right now I've got zero pieces of lingerie and zero toys. Without lingerie I'm nothing, nothing but hot air and unfulfillable fantasies.

Friday, January 29, 2016

January is ending

I just realized that it's the end of January already. That came as a surprise because I've been so fucking busy...

No girlygurly fun. No crossdressing. No cocksucking. Nothing for Johanna, nothing at all. So far 2016 has sucked badly for me.

The photo above shows what toys I had for my glorious week. Then I had to get rid of all of it. Yeah, you read correctly: I had to purge again :'(

Maybe things will get better :) I sure hope they do :)

Friday, December 25, 2015

Happy something!

Happy whatever the hell you feel like celebrating - if you celebrate anything! I don't really mind or care this way or that, as long as I don't have to be at work over a couple of extra days :D

A festivus for the rest of us!