The winter solstice is near!

Whatever you folks feel like celebrating - or don't celebrate, it's all the same to me. The most important thing to me is the vacation. If it can be called a vacation, I'll be seeing relatives and such for a good two weeks, just about every day.

That sort of a "vacation" leaves little time for actual relaxation. Oh, how I love traditions :p Let's all enjoy the pretty and excited girl below, in any case! <3

See you next year, fellow wankers and tgirl fans :)

New possibilities, maybe

This will all be just speculation and maybes. You have been warned.

The difficulties of staying in the closet

I've complained plentily that I haven't got much, if any, time to play nowadays. There's no acceptably good hideout for lingerie and toys, either. Therefore I only own a single butt plug, cockring and g-string. Even they aren't in as safe a hideout as I'd like them to be.

While I'm talking about nonexistent hideouts, I'm talking about practical ones. Of course there'd be something near perfect, but then I would be facing the problem of hiding and unhiding my things and that wouldn't be quick. Thanks to the hideyness. And that would be even worse for my limited time to play gurly things.

An ancient photo of mine

Time is of the essence

Let's say that at best I could have something like 40 minutes to spend on this naughty hobby of mine, a random amount of times a month. Could be none, could be three, but incredibly rarely even five. So, very low numbers.

If I spent fifteen minutes to get my stuff from the perfectest of hideouts and drag it home, later on another fifteen to return everything back. In addition to that I would also need to set everything up, have my fun, undo and clean what needs to be cleaned. Everything else could be timed, I guess, except the playtime and doing that on the clock, thinking "I've got two minutes until I have to start packing up"... highly un-arousing, don't you think? ;)

So there: practically impossible. And it is quite depressing, not being able to be myself. I guess it's how it goes deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep inside the closet.

Another ancient photo of mine

Potential

Things are uncertain. Nothing is guaranteed. These declarations apply to life in general, as everyone knows, I guess. But still, maybe, maybe I have a whole week almost completely for myself next year!

Yeah, I know. Being happy about a semiopen week sometime next year is quite sad. But it's also the best I've faced in a handful of years. So I'll be most eagerly jumping in, if I can!

I guarantee you that if that happens, I'll get a full setup for myself. Even if I have to throw it all away after that maybe-week. It'd be so worth it and more :)

Planning already

My shopping list (that I have started setting up already) includes the usuals. A corselet with or without garters, a garter belt if needed, thigh-high stockings, a rio g-string if findable. Everything in whore-red. Or red-black, if needed. Or anything else, if it looks hot and delicious to me. This time I'd go for a wig, too, as my own hair isn't up to gurl standards by any measure :P
Heels are something I've never tried and finding a pair (in proper colour, size 42) would most likely be beyond my possibilities, but if I came across any, I'd get those as well. And a toy or three to go with them ;)

When would I know? I have no idea. Maybe by next week's Friday, maybe in May. But I promise you this: when I know, I'll let my friends online know ;) Even if I have to tell that "it's cancelled :<"

A revelation to myself

Mental, not physical revelations

It took me a good while to fall asleep one recent night. Maybe it was Friday, maybe Thursday, who cares? While I was just rolling around stupidly and trying to fall asleep, my brain just kept on working on whatever brains want to work on when they don't allow you to sleep like decent brains would.

Anyway, among a thousand other things I realized that I want to be a part of a gurltrain. I just made that word up, I guess, but it should be self-explanatory. A gurltrain is obviously a mantrain with t-girls, sissies, crossdressers and whatever other types of "girls with dangly bits" there are.

I haven't got the faintest clue if I would want to be the locomotive, the coal truck or the lonely train car in the back. All I know for a solid certainty is that I want to be there. Badly. That and eiffeling.

The sad thing is that I most likely won't get to be there, thanks to many things, of which my immeasurable shyness is maybe the biggest. And the absolute need of secrecy, which I guess is a major issue to all of us, the closet crossdresses of the known universe :)

Almost like myself

Another pic that shows someone who's quite a lot like myself. Of course, it's not my photo, I'll say when I post those ;)
In any case: I would just add cockrings and trade that pink thing into something red instead. Not a fan of pink, me.

Red is perfect <3

Red-hot hotness in red

It's a pic time for a change! I mean, whoever reads this blog doesn't do that because of me and my own content, obviously ;)

Dreams

This girl is the perfect image of who and what I would love to be. My dream. My most likely unreachable goal. But that happens, so let's not dwell on it and ruin the day :D

Fantasising

Everyone knows that I'm also a fool for redheads. Therefore these three pics tell quite well what I'd love to do with this lady... with or without switched positions ;) I could equally well be the one fucking her or the one being fucked by here, as long as I get to suck her delicious, hard clit <3

And once again, just in case: I am in none of these pics and I don't look like a girl at all. It's another sad, sad fact of life :'(

Yeah.... oh yeah!

Toyshopping

I did buy a buttplug and some cockrings becaues I desired them so badly... To make things even more interesting, I've worn them at work too. So very naughty and so very exciting ;)

First go

I was chatting online with another girlie and I told her that I had taken my brand-spanking-new plug with me just so I could tell her about it. She was excatic and urged me to plug myself asap! Circumstances being what they were, I had to wait and then it took time.

First, of course, I went to the bathroom with my heart in my throat. Locked all doors I could lock and took quietly my shoes and pants off. With my own saliva I lubricated the plug and as it has a suction cup in the bottom, put its tip against my moistened hole and the other end onto the wall. Leaning forward and pushing backward I was first penetrated and then filled up slowly and deliciously.



Maybe you can imagine how difficult it was to keep noises down ;) Of course I didn't just push it straight in but fucked it inside me, feeling very slutty. Especially when my buttcheeks hit the wall repeatedly. When I felt it was enough for the time being, I pulled up my g-string and headed back to my place, walking slowly and carefully.

And then...

I then told her and she loved to hear about it and was so turned on that I did such a thing for her. Took pics, even, but I'm not sharing all that here... At some point I noticed that I could take the plug out a bit and ride it on my chair. As long as no one would notice! That was sweet and damn sexy. My lady friend got so heated up in the end that she went for her own plug and panties and was making them wet with precum within minutes!

Finally, after a lenghty and naughty chat session we both headed towards our toilets for release. Myself, I first backed up against the wall and refucked myself with my plug and then sat on the toilet seat, facing backwards, riding the plug like mad! I had at first tried to put on my cockrings, but after putting on the largest one around my sack, the next one that's supposed to go to the base of the shaft, barely went over the head... So I had to leave 2/3 of my rings off.

Didn't matter, I came like the oldest of the faithfuls <3 Took a bit to clean up my mess but I was the second to last to leave work that day, it was safe. Phew.

Just so you know, I'm plugged, cockringed and wearing my precummy black g-string right now while I'm writing this. And telling you is such a turn-on ;)

Workplace naughtiness increases

Yeah... I'm wearing my g-string at work yet again. I love it.
Now I just feel like I should be plugged, too. But I don't own a plug because for some stupid reason I didn't buy one when I bought these knickers. I guess I'm just stupid or I didn't think I'd get to this again.
I was wrong.

Something like this could be very nice ;)

I'm horny. I need things, badly. Right now.

Seminaughty at work

It's Friday after the May Day.
The second day this week I'm wearing my new black g-strings at work. I feel so naughty and horny, also slightly scared... What if the strings can be seen when I change my position enough?

It's fucking exciting!

All work and no play makes Jossu a dull gurl

Work. That fucker has ruined weeks of my "let's waste time online and chat with gurls" time. How dares it?

Maybe I'll get to return to fun-having in a couple of weeks already? :)

Pics: some lovelier ladies than myself

To be there with her...

This could be me if I wore a wig ;)